The
energy which created religion as a trace in the process of working itself out
is very real. On the other hand, the process that creates every religion turns
the free-play of signifiers that was in the beginning into a game with rules
and borders. One is not allowed to edit and revise those rules or redraw those
borders once the game is in progress; seeing any gap between the map and the
territory strips the emperor naked, un-tunes the sky and makes it harder for
the simply devout to properly digest their food, whether we are talking about
material bread or spiritual sustenance. A shaman is a visionary walking between
worlds, gesturing madly in an attempt to make us see the absence of everything
missing from our side of the divide. We live inside a map which is one of the
worlds the shaman walks between. The shaman is no prophet. She does not claim
exclusive rights to anything. She leaves no true map of things to ensnare later
travelers.
“What, do you imagine that I would take so much trouble and so much pleasure in writing, do you think that I would keep so persistently to my task, if I were not preparing - with a rather shaky hand - a labyrinth into which I can venture, in which I can move my discourse, opening up underground passages, forcing it to go far from itself, finding overhangs that reduce and deform its itinerary, in which I can lose myself and appear at last to eyes that I will never have to meet again.
I am no doubt not the only one who writes in order to have no face. Do not ask who I am and do not ask me to remain the same: leave it to our bureaucrats and our police to see that our papers are in order. At least spare us their morality when we write.” –Michel Foucault
I am no doubt not the only one who writes in order to have no face. Do not ask who I am and do not ask me to remain the same: leave it to our bureaucrats and our police to see that our papers are in order. At least spare us their morality when we write.” –Michel Foucault
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 27, 2014
Ferguson for Thanksgiving
It was almost sadistic to
release the grand jury's findings just before Thanksgiving. For many of us,
Thanksgiving will be something to get through rather than something to enjoy
because that elephant will be in the room with us. The divide on this issue is
not between black and white but between people who are essentially decent and
people who are not. The most disturbing aspect of the situation is how
accurately one can predict which side of that divide someone wearing a badge is
on knowing nothing more about them than that they are wearing a badge.
The officers threatened with
termination unless they removed the "I am Darren Wilson" bracelets
they had previously worn, on duty, in Ferguson, while working crowd control at
protests triggered by Mike Brown's murder, were not "bad apples";
they were good cops as cops themselves define that term. Their only fault was
being honest about who they were and what their values were in a way and in a
situation where doing so was less than useful to Darrin Wilson and all the
other fine people who were doing their best to see that Wilson got away with murder the way cops normally do. When
Darren Wilson says that he was just doing his job, more cops believe him than
not and further judge anyone who does not believe him as having issues with
authority, wanting an excuse to do some looting or being otherwise motivated by
something much less respectable than a simple desire for justice.
2+2=4. What happened to Mike
Brown was murder, a hate crime and the most heinous possible example of causing
death while violating civil rights under color of law. The second statement is
as true and obvious as the first. The horror of what happened in Ferguson goes well beyond what Darren Wilson did. The full
horror of Ferguson is the personal, gut reaction of almost every other
cop in America to what he did; most cops would agree with Darren
Wilson that he was just doing his job.
Darren Wilson would not stand
out in any way in a large room containing a random sample of cops. Most cops are
Darren Wilson. Michael Brown is dead not because of a bad apple but because he
encountered a cop who defined doing his job about the way most cops do. This is
how policing is done now. What passes for "law enforcement" makes a
mockery of the claim that America is a democracy characterized by the rule of law and
respect for the rights of citizens; anyone who could make that claim with a
straight face is either in denial or has no idea what cops do all day to earn
their pay.
Nov 25, 2014
On learning to teach English as a second language: first comment
The contrast between the descriptive
studies of various languages in use done by linguists and the prescriptive
approach involved in what most people mean when they say “grammar” could not be
greater. Over the last three decades or so, I've taught this kind of “grammar”
as part of my official job description as an instructor of Rhetoric and
Composition at various community colleges. When I first started teaching those
classes, I had to learn prescriptive English grammar so that I could teach it.
Many people learn to speak something that is close enough to Standard English
to pass for it in most settings without learning the formal rules well enough
to pass a really rigorous grammar test. Some even learn to write well enough to
practice law or make a living in journalism without being able to state most of
the rules they do obey many more times than not in writing their legal briefs
or newspaper articles.
On the other hand, I speak from many
years of experience in asserting that teaching someone who writes badly enough
grammar to pass a really rigorous grammar test will not always improve their
writing all that much. Some people can understand grammar at the level of
abstraction without automatically following those rules when they compose text;
others consistently follow abstract grammar rules they could not state clearly
if asked why the words of their text are strung together the way they are. Many
people know what is “right” well enough to communicate very effectively in both
speaking and writing but could not tell you what exactly most of the
spontaneous choices they make in the process would appeal to in response to a
question about why they are right.
I'm writing a lot about the written
form even though linguists more often than not mean the spoken form when they
speak of language and see the written form as an attempt to transcribe the
spoken language. The great “aha” insight that came to me only recently was the
realization that my own engrained and habitual way of thinking about language
amounts to seeing spoken discourse as text performed under conditions that
severely limit the quality of that performance.
This is natural for a person whose pattern of thinking and feeling was shaped
at least as much by the vicarious experience provided by reading as by his own
immediate experience participating in the particular way of life that
socialized most of his peers. I've only been tutoring ESL for a few months and, thus,
still think like someone who read constantly as a kid, later decided he wanted
to be a writer and ended up as a teacher of writing and literature.
On the other hand, I'm noticing for the first time how little
help knowing how to spell English words gives someone who is trying to say the
word rather than to read it or writ it.
My first few students were all Puerto Ricans who amazed me by being able
to read anything in English they wanted, enjoy American movies without needing
sub-titles and understand me pretty well most of the time when I spoke to them.
What they could not do, at first, was to get their needs met here in Florida without great difficulty. In
many different settings, they faced the maddening frustration of understanding
what other people said in reply to their attempts to communicate well enough to
be absolutely sure of the failure of these attempts.
The pronunciation of a word is not a
fact that one comes to know but something one learns to do with one's mouth.
That is what I need to learn to take for granted to be really helpful to my
students, but it goes totally against the grain of how I have thought about
words up until now. Knowing how a given language works both as sounds made in a
particular way and as a process whereby these sounds come to mean more than
they are is the goal of linguistics. It is also a habitual way of thinking
about language. I need to acquire that habit in order to be more helpful to
persons who are trying to learn a second language. I need to learn to describe what I do, with
my mouth and otherwise, in speaking English in order to teach anyone else to
speak English. I've decided that the main difference between a very patient
native speaker of English and someone who really knows how to teach English as
a second language flows from this capacity to describe what you are doing when
you speak English in the way that a linguist would.
When I started volunteering as an ESL tutor I thought that tutoring ESL would be very similar to
teaching college-transfer or developmental English, as I have already been
doing for years. I've enjoyed tutoring immensely more than I expected because
tutoring ESL has turned out to be fundamentally different from anything else
I've done before. I'm learning things about how language is used and acquired
that I did not know in spite of years spent being obsessed with language and
determined to acquire greater skill in the use of language. I've learned enough
about how teaching a second language ought to be done to be amazed at how
turnip-witted some of my previous assumptions were. I'm muddling through and
getting better and realizing that there is so much that I haven't learned yet
about how to do this that I can almost certainly expect to be much better at
something very much worth doing even just a year from today than I am right
now. I had said for years that, even though I had never officially taught an ESL class, I had in practice taught
a lot of ESL just given who shows up for your classes if you agree to teach
developmental English in Houston, Texas, especially at a satellite campus in
the inner city. I always enjoyed those classes and my department chair always
made it a point to be nice to me. He knew that he would someday need someone
once again to teach a developmental course in a “bad” neighborhood that was
fully enrolled to the cap but would cancel anyway for lack of an instructor if
I did not take it. I like teaching ESL better than anything else I have
ever done and genuinely regret that I did not discover ESL sooner.
Nov 9, 2014
Autism, ESL and Second Life
Second
Life (SL) is being used to teach ESL internationally with,
admittedly, a selection bias favoring rich nations and the better-off in poor
nations. People come to SL for many reasons, but
the desire to learn spoken English is high on the list. Anyone who puts significant
effort into building a "second-life" is seeking some supplement, in
exactly Derrida's sense, to their first-life (Derrida, n.d.). ESL learners
are supplementing their first-lives with a virtual immersion in the English
language. In turn, this immersion is supplemented by resources available in SL
but not in first-life immersion. Someone taught in school to read English but
not to speak it would gain little from first-life immersion. In SL, he would
find an abundance of ESL activities
and even more activities, also conducted in English, for people who share some
common interest. He could spend his entire second-life attending ESL
activities and practicing English. He could type a word and immediately see and
hear the English translation. He could use voice but also share text with a
group or IM individuals.
"Shiaida
Palianta" is a British ESL
teacher who has spent thirty years in Hong Kong teaching Cantonese speakers,
many already using written English to communicate with Mandarin speakers and the
outside world, to speak English. Globally, people literate in English far
outnumber people who are mutually comprehensible speaking English. Many who are
literate struggle to become comprehensible to native speakers defined as the
largest sample of persons who are mutually comprehensible speaking English. A
huge population literate in English has been drawn into SL by a keen interest
in joining this conversation of the mutually comprehensible. They are in the
right place.
The
best Virtual Learning Environment (VLE) is a better place for persons literate
in English to learn to speak than the best first-world setting; the virtual
supplements the actual in ways that make the actual a pale imitation of the
virtual. Shiaida Palianta's ability to multi-task, using every available resource
to keep everyone in their personal Zone of Proximal Development (ZPD), is astonishing. During her English News Clips!, we read texts aloud
and talk about them. Her co-host is 'Leee Megadon", a Mandarin speaker who
keeps the group moving mostly via IMs and public text. The use
of IM or text to provide scaffolding, either backchannel to individual users or
shared with everyone, makes it possible to give help without breaking the
continuity of conversation. All of us do this, often IMing or texting the
written version of a word or pronouncing it for a speaker who can't say it but
can write it. We also look at pictures and describe them while being primed
for new vocabulary by leading questions and requests for further elaboration; a
word is remembered when it is provided exactly when the learner is searching
for just that word. Constant double coding of the spoken with the written plus
pictures that make new words immediately useful works very well. Instant
translation into English helps, especially since the translation is both
written and spoken, as does access to the Internet.
All
of our regulars are literate but not (as defined above) native speakers. They
come mostly from non-English speaking countries where English is required for
graduation from high school or college. They, collectively, are an object
lesson in what English as a Foreign Language (EFL) in the schools of a
non-English speaking country typically can and cannot accomplish. All fit a
single learner profile so closely that the same VLE and teaching style works
for everyone. English News Clips!
uses their literacy to help them learn to converse in a way that would not be
possible without the tools available in SL.
Admittedly,
this only works because Shiaida Palianta spent years in Hong
Kong teaching people already
literate in English to speak. She then learned how to use the resources of SL
to supplement what she could do in a first-life classroom. I would still claim
that the supplement provided by SL makes possible something that is more effective with this
population than anything she could do in first-life. Remember also that we could
never routinely meet in first-life. Given a computer, anyone anywhere can join
us. SL makes it possible to deliver instruction fine-tuned to the needs of any
sub-population. English Language Learners (ELL) who are autistic are one
example. SL eliminates first-world location as a constraint on participation
but not time. English News Clips! takes
place at 5am SL (Pacific)
time, 8am
(Eastern) time and 4pm Moscow time.
Much
work has been done in VLE to help autistics remedy a lack of social skills (Mitchell, Parsons,
& Leonard, 2007). Lack of social skills is the only disability many High-Functioning
Autistics (HFA) suffer. SL provides a supplement to first world interaction teaching
skills that are normally not taught but acquired, as is language, during normal
development (Mangan, 2008). Autistics acquiring social skills are strikingly
similar to ELL immersed without scaffolding; they and others are frustrated by
their inability to "pick it up" by osmosis. The result is often Social
Avoidance Disorder (SAD) as a secondary symptom of Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD).
An
extensive support network has grown up in SL to provide safe spaces where
autistics can interact without "faking normal" to be accepted and rehearsal
spaces where new approaches to being with others can be tried out in a
risk-free environment where failure triggers not rejection but a
"time-out" to explain what faux pas was just committed, followed by a
discussion of how to avoid doing it again and/or deal better with the blow-back
if it does. The potential of virtual worlds to improve the lives of persons
suffering from life-long disabilities is potentially transformative (Stendal, Balandin,
& Molka-Danielsen, 2011; Education Week, 2011). Enough people cross-trained
in Instructional Design/Special Ed. to design the required VLE is the only
limiting factor.
I
could not find ESL events
created specifically for autistics in SL. To the extent that this population
acquires language in atypical ways, which they definitely do, an event
fine-tuned to those differences would make sense. Autistics do not, for
example, follow the normal progression in learning their first language and
probably would not in learning a second language (Eigsti, Bennetto, &
Dadlani, 2007).
One of Asperger's original cases went on to major in foreign languages (Wire,
2005). A few autistics speak with an authentic accent that is not the dominate
accent of their home or neighborhood. These few are worth mentioning because
all known cases were autistic; these few apparently were extreme examples of a
greater capacity among autistics for exact mimicry. A talent for memorizing
rules works to their advantage to the extent that languages are rule bound but
is a source of frustration when exceptions are encountered (Wire, 2005).
I
know from personal experience working with HFA in SL that they very often
prefer texting to FTF
conversation because text fails to code context cues that they miss FTF and thus
puts them at less of a relative disadvantage. Emoticons are useful as a
substitute for this information. Simultaneously seeing text of what is being
said helps whether they are speaking or listening (Yahya & Yunus,
2012). The idea
that speaking is ephemeral and fleeting while text is something solid that one
can refer back to when feeling lost was often expressed. Autistics, especially the 20% functioning in
the normal range of intelligence, tend to have larger speaking vocabularies and
a better gasp of syntax and phonology than would be predicted by their IQs. The
difficulties in communication suffered by this upper 20% are exclusively a
matter of pragmatics (Seung, 2007). These difficulties are symptomatic of the
lack of a theory of mind sufficient to allow inference from what is said to
what goes without saying or goes unsaid (Colle, Baron-Cohen,
Wheelwright, & Van der Lely, 2008). Inferring this background provides most of us
with the context of use and intention that is the field within which the
utterance as figure is fixed. Failure to read this context creates the painful
sense of being on-stage without a script that many HFA use to describe how lost
and clueless they often feel during social interactions.
HFA
are natural linguists. The best way to teach them a second language might be to
teach them everything a linguist would say about that language. To the extent
that languages follow rules, HFA seem to have an absolute advantage in learning
languages in any environment where their "why" questions about a
spelling or a pronunciation can be answered by stating a rule. Even "there
is a distribution rule that governs that pronunciation but I can't remember it
off the top of my head" might work if students were also taught where
online to go and how to search for rules the teacher can not remember. A VLE
might be the best place to teach ESL for
autistics. Online classes exclusively made up of this target population could
be taught or the site could serve as the enrichmen/accommodation that made a
language class hybrid for the one autistic in a first-life class.
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Nov 3, 2014
Altruism
The
cultural animal is altruistic because the cultural animal’s particular kind of
agent self is a looking-glass self that begins to be created early in
development, typically around 30 months, by internalizing the responses of the
set of significant others important to the developing person at that time. At
first, the other-directed emotions of shame and guilt are felt when a
significant observer reacts in sharply negative fashion to an observed
behavior. An important next step comes when the developing human learns to
accurately imagine how a significant other who may or may not be actually
present would react to an action that was just performed or is being
contemplated. Each layer of development added makes the developing animal more
cultural and the “selfish” actions of this looking-glass self-agent more
other-directed.
Finally, a generalized other emerges as the
constant audience and judge of the actions of a self so fundamentally
other-directed that almost every action, even those never witnessed by any
actual other, are for the other and selfish at the same time for a self that
is for the other if not all the way
down at least very, very deeply down. In the fully mature cultural animal that
the typical adult usually becomes, all actions are either for or in spite of this generalized other or some literal other
present or imagined as the audience of the action. Actions in spite of make us feel guilt or shame. I do not feel comfortable
saying that only our in spite of
actions are selfish. I also do not feel comfortable saying that our for actions are finally selfish because
they are performed to make us feel better. Given the way we cultural animals
develop as such, it would be utterly amazing if we did not routinely do things
with the ultimate goal of benefiting other persons and feel really good about
ourselves when we do.
“The
empathy-altruism hypothesis claims that pro-social motivation associated with
feeling empathy for a person in need is directed toward the ultimate goal of
benefiting that person, not toward some subtle form of self-benefit” (Batson et
al., 1988, p. 52). This is the clearest statement I have found of the Batson
position. It essentially argues that altruistic behaviors are based on feelings
of empathy for others that lead us to perform actions that contribute to the
well-being of these others. The phrase “not toward some subtle form of
self-benefit” is where the argument with Cialdini starts. Cialdini and those of
his camp want to say that if any form of subtle self-benefit can account for
altruistic behavior then these behaviors are not truly altruistic. Their
research agenda is an attempt to explain all forms of seemingly altruistic
behavior in terms of such subtle forms of self-benefit. Batson’s counter-agenda
is an attempt to design experiments that control for these “subtle forms of
self-benefit” without eliminating altruistic responses. If Cialdini were on
fire and I put him out with a foam fire extinguisher, he would claim after the
fact that I only did it because it lowered my level of distress when he stopped
running around and screaming and instead lay quietly on the floor repeating “Oh
God, oh God” over and over. When Batson heard of this, he would immediately
begin trying to design an experiment that would determine if I would have used
the fire extinguisher on Cialdini in circumstances such that this reduction in
my own level of distress would not have resulted. All the references cited in
our textbook are examples of this agenda or this counter-agenda. The long spiel
I opened with was meant as an explanation of why I see the whole dispute as
being somewhat silly.
A 1991
study used a sample of 252 college students with a heavily female skew
(198/252) in three experiments testing the hypothesis that helping behavior was
motivated by the joy that those helping could expect to experience vicariously
when the individual’s situation improved (Batson et al., 1991). These were
factorial studies controlling for level of empathy (low/high) and chance of
experiencing vicarious joy (20%/50%/80%). The patterns that emerged were not at
all consistent with what would have been predicted if helping were motivated by
the chance of experiencing vicarious joy. Vicarious joy is therefore not a
“subtle form of self-benefit” sufficient to explain the helping that actually
took place. This does not prove that this altruistic behavior was motivated by
simple empathy with no ultimate goal beyond benefiting the person helped but
the results are not inconsistent with this claim. This is the typical move of
the Batson camp agenda: take some “subtle form of self-benefit” put forward by
the Cialdini camp as a motive for helping behavior, control for it as an
independent variable, and show that the level of this independent variable
makes no difference to the dependent variable whereas the level of empathy,
measured as another dependent variable, does.
The idea of
a 2x2 factorial design looking at (low/high empathy) and (ease/difficulty of
escape) as the levels of the two independent variables was looked at in a 1981
study by Batson et al. Once again, we have empathy and a second independent
variable cross-controlling for each other. The idea is that if watching someone
else suffer gives us an egotistic motive to help, then how easily we can escape
watching them suffer should also determine how willing to help we are. On the
other hand, if our response is rooted in pure empathy, whether we can escape
watching or must continue to watch should not have much impact on our
willingness to help. The results showed that in high empathy subjects, how easy
it was to escape did not predict helping whereas in the low empathy subjects,
it did. The low empathy subjects helped more when escape was hard and not as
much when escape was easy. Empathy motivated helping even when escape was easy.
Egoistic motives did so only when escape was hard. The implication is that
empathy always generates altruistic behavior whereas egoistic motives sometimes
do but not as reliably as high levels of empathy. High empathy alone is enough
to generate altruistic behaviors at both levels of the second egoistic
independent variable (Batson, Duncan, Ackerman, Buckley, & Birch, 1981).
In another
study, a total of 100 participants broken down into three age categories (6-8,
10-12, and 15-18) were used to try to resolve contradictory findings about
altruism and negative mood (Cialdini & Kenrick, 1976). Some studies had
shown a positive correlation between negative mood and altruism and some had
not. The study authors hypothesized that if negative mood does correlate with
altruism, this would indicate that altruism has the egoistic motive of cheering
the altruist up. They further surmised that the contradiction in the original
studies were caused by not taking age, and therefore level of socialization, into
account, which is why they broke their sample up into three age categories. The
three groups were encouraged to think of either depressing or neutral events
and then given the chance to be generous. The younger subjects were actually
less generous after thinking depressing thoughts but this reversed with
increasing age and level of socialization until the opposite pattern was seen
for the oldest group. These results indicate that the self-rewarding impact of
benevolence on mood is an artifact of socialization.
Thomas and
Batson (1981) conducted a study to establish that normative pressure to help
may actually undermine the self-reward that comes from being spontaneously
altruistic. This was another 2x2 factorial design in which the independent
variables were receiving help/no help and a second variable was based on being
told either that most people helped or that few people helped. The dependent
variable was how altruistic subjects felt as determined by a survey hidden in
materials given out to disguise the actual purpose of the research. The
subjects who felt most altruistic were those who helped without having received
help and were told that very few people helped.
Normative pressure, especially normative pressure based on the principle
of reciprocity and a strong social consensus about what one “ought” to do, is
often put forward as an explanation of helping behavior that is egoistic and
self-serving rather than being determined by a genuine empathically based
concern for the other. Showing that responding to such normative pressures
actually makes people feel less altruistic when they help is another way to
attack the idea that altruism is finally self-serving in this way. Please
forgive me if this fast sprint through only five research articles has given
the impression that I do not take the subject seriously. It is more that the
two well-established camps involved in the debate have defined the terms of the
debate in a way that is not all the interesting from my perspective.
I spend a lot of time on the
Internet. I am something of a connoisseur of weirdness. I seek out unusual
people online and, more often than not, on those rare occasions when I travel,
I am going to meet someone in real-time I have gotten to know well online. Most
of the people I communicate with online I will never meet in real-time. Many of
them live in New Zealand for some
reason. One person I got to know online knowing that I would never meet her in
real-time was the only homeless woman in America, as far as I know, who managed
in spite of being officially homeless to have a blog. She had a computer
science degree from University of Maryland and had
tapped into the power-lines while living in a sort of yurt in a forested area
of Northern Virginia. Years before, she had
worked for the Department of Justice and had helped win the big anti-trust suit
against Micro-soft by hyper-linking all the documents together in one big file
in a way that was innovative at the time. She was a high functioning autistic
who after losing many jobs and suffering many frustrations moved out into the
woods to avoid further trauma.
She had a
real genius for online search and I paid her small amounts of money to do
research for me. This was one way that she bought food and replaced her
electronics gear as it wore out. I enjoyed reading her blog and remained a
regular contributor and online friend even after she managed to cost me one of
my own jobs and a couple of valuable professional connections just being who
she was. To be fair, I also made several friends based on my gutsy willingness
to be publicly associated with someone whose letters to the Washington Post
often got lengthy replies and caused odd sub-conflicts to spin-off from
important political issues. Many people knew about the crazy genius woman out
in the woods even though no one knew exactly where her yurt was located.
At some
point, she began to complain about her teeth. She had not seen a dentist for
years and was never highly focused on dental hygiene. She would not let me pay
for dental work. She also spent anything I paid her on food, including sweets,
and computer gear all the time she was complaining about her teeth. Finally,
she as changed but I’m not sure it has improved. Mine has improved.
I asked all
my housemates how to answer this question and they all gave the same reply.
Suzie says that I’m always the one who takes care of her when she is sick.
David and Kathy mention that I’m always willing to do errands and everyone
pointed out that I’m the one who takes out the garbage and cleans the cat’s
liter boxes not because these tasks were assigned to me in any official way but
because I started doing them and everyone now thinks of these as my tasks. I’ve
ended up doing the things no one else wants to do. I believe altruism to be
very real for all the reasons I presented in the first paragraphs of this essay.
A cultural animal, with a self that is other-directed almost all the way down,
is capable of being selfish on behalf of a self that can, on occasion, expand
to include all life anywhere in the universe. It would make me happy to learn
that we are not alone in this universe for all the same reasons that it makes
me happy to have friends that I will never have the chance to hug in New
Zealand. It makes me happy when the
Democrats win elections or when one of my students from Pakistan gets
admitted to the engineering program at Texas A&M partially because I put a
lot of time and all the rhetorical skill I possess into writing a letter of
recommendation. In less than 600 words, I skillfully undermined every negative
stereotype about Muslims that might have gotten in his way so subtly that I’m
sure the engineering committee never realized how carefully everything they
were reading had been spun to my student’s advantage. The glory of a cultural
animal is the way the very nature of this looking-glass-self, other-directed
almost all the way down, makes it difficult to say what is altruistic and what
is selfish. I want to argue that, the more cultural an animal becomes, the
harder this distinction is to draw and, perhaps, the less meaning it has in
actual practice.
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Batson, C.
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Oct 22, 2014
Home is Where your Heart was Broken
My
grandfather’s grandfather fought for the Confederacy. This is
important because, in ideological terms, the southern rebellion
continues to this day. For generations, the south was solidly
Democratic because Lincoln freed the slaves. Now the South is almost
as solidly Republican because Lyndon Johnson signed the Civil Rights
Act of 1964. My father was a second generation cotton farmer who
later turned to peanuts. My mother was office manager\bookkeeper at a
cotton gin that later became a fertilizer plant. Her father owned a
machine shop that mostly repaired farm equipment. We were not poor by
local standards. I attended segregated public schools for eight years
and remained for another year while the segregation academy I
attended for my last three years of high school was hastily created.
Most of my graduating class did not continue their education. Almost
all who did attended the near-by community college. I applied to a
small liberal arts college and was accepted.
I
learned early to use books as a place to stand to read my lived
experience from beyond its own horizon. One thing I learned very
quickly was that I was living in a cultural ghetto despised either
openly or subtly by almost anyone clever enough to get a book
published, and that the main thing I knew from personal experience
that the clever people did not was how the people around me could
possibly think of themselves as decent and their way of life as a
culture worth preserving. I learned that what “they” were
writing about “us” was often perfectly true as an observation
from the outside but, typically, totally clueless as a description
that did justice to life as it was immediately experienced by most of
the people around me.
I
became deeply suspicious of the absolute privileging of any one
cultural frame as “objective” and much inclined to see questions
of right and wrong as historically contingent and culturally
relative. I enjoy working with students who are considered
“culturally disadvantaged” because this attitude allows me to
meet them where they are. I try to encourage them to use the books
that they are reading to look back into their own experience from
beyond the horizon of that experience and to notice especially those
points where questions they can ask based on their own
life-experience can cause the closure and coherence of the text to
unravel. I think of this as encouraging them to read in everything
they know from personal experience that had to be left out of the
story to make the book's pretense to being all that is worth saying
about some important aspect of the human condition plausible, to
measure the truth of the text by the standard of what their lives
have taught them.
This
is what it means to read critically. Reading a book critically makes
that book a magical apparatus that allows one to be two places at
once, both inside one particular life speaking truth to any outside
power on the absolute authority of having lived and in living learned
not just to know but to be whatever human possibility that book's
version of truth must deny to claim status as the whole truth of
everything that ultimately matters in this business of being human
and, at the same time, outside looking into that very same life from
a place that makes it possible to know and notice things that no one
trapped inside that life, knowing only what that one life could
teach, could ever know or notice.
I’ve
always been both insider and outsider in every culture I inhabit,
both native and anthropologist writing reports for readers in some
second home who may never be at home in the place I describe. Given
my own origin in a cultural ghetto that was not recognized as such by
most of the people who lived there, I’m especially aware of this
duality of perspective when I work with Afro-American students in the
inner city. Any ghetto is both a place of quarantine and a place of
sanctuary where the life of a marginalized culture unfolds. Terrible
things are routinely written about the inner city by people looking
at that life-world from the outside. These things are often true but
not at all useful from the perspective of someone trying to live the
best life they can where they are and, maybe, eventually, either make
that place better or move on to some better place.
I always wanted to
move on to some better place and never understood good people, black
or white, inner-city or down-home, who saw everything that was wrong
from both the inside and the outside and said, “this is my home;
I’m not going anywhere.” I’m wondering, for the first time, why
I’ve never checked out opportunities at community colleges like the
one most of my former high-school class-mates probably never made it
through if they even tried. I’ve spent years meeting students where
they are hoping to help them see beyond the horizon of what they have
known of life so far. But, I’ve never considered that I might be
the perfect person to do exactly that in the place where I first
discovered the transforming power of reading books as a way of
reading the world of immediate experience more deeply than common
sense goes.
Oct 20, 2014
Trauma
Trauma
I
remember an episode when I was about ten. I was telling my friend,
Ben Shelley, about watching the building of the big house out in the
country where my maternal grandparents lived. The image of my
grandfather using a disk drawn by mules to dig out what would become
a basement so big that it was more like a third story buried
underground below the two stories visible above ground; this was
burned into my memory as something unforgettable. I was as sure that
I had witnessed that important moment as I was of anything.
This
is why I was crying hysterically ten minutes later after my mom,
having overheard our conversation, spent those intervening minutes
insisting that I could not possibly remember seeing my grandfather
dig that basement out in 1935. The math of my claim just did not work
out given that I was born 19 years later in 1954. Specifically, I was
born to a mom who had been a cute little red-headed girl back in
1935. This little girl actually had stood enraptured on more than one
occasion in the summer of that year watching her father dig out a
basement that looked to her at the time to be as vast and miraculous
as the Grand Canyon.
This
was one of the cherished memories of my mom’s childhood and she
told the story often. There was a framed picture of the event hanging
on the wall of the parlor of the house that my grandfather built as a
spacious and comfy nest for his growing brood. I had seen it often
and my mom showed it to me once again when next we made our usual
Sunday visit to the home-place. The picture agreed perfectly with my
own vivid memory of the occurrence down to last detail. I even
remembered correctly that my bald-on-top grandfather had a full head
of impressive steel gray hair back then. My eyewitness account and my
mom’s agreed perfectly except for one detail; I remembered being
there but my mom was certain that I was not present.
False
memories are not rare and mysterious. They are so common that it
would be fair to say that any person selected at random from the
general population and told to write a memoir of his or her life so
far would put down a great deal in perfect good faith as gospel truth
that a detailed and extensive investigation would reveal as
demonstrably not possible based on documents and other forms of hard
evidence generated during the periods of time being recalled.
Elizabeth Loftus, among others, has established that the profound
faith juries put in eyewitness testimony is not even remotely
justified by what research has now established about the accuracy of
eyewitness accounts (Loftus, 1996). It has been a joke among lawyers
for many years that four eyewitnesses to the same event will give
five different versions of the event. Loftus and others have now been
able to generate solid research findings verifying the suspicions
experienced trial attorneys have always, but only in private or when
taking an eyewitness account at face value would convict their
client, felt about the truth value of eyewitness testimony. One thing
that almost all of the persons exonerated by DNA evidence have in
common is the strong role played by eyewitness testimony in their
original convictions (The Innocence Project).
“We
are memories which act” as Henri Laborit says playing himself as a
kind of Greek chorus in Alan Resnais’ Mon
Oncle D'amérique
(1980), a film whose characters’ lives provide three interwoven
plots which, all together, illustrate Laborit’s conception of the
self as a memory that acts. Laborit and the late Australian narrative
therapist, Michael White, have provided me with the materials out of
which I have built my own conception of the self as a memory which
acts (White, 1990). Findings from neuroscience about the mechanism of
storage and retrieval of memories also provided not so much
inspiration as cross-validation from another very different
disciplinary perspective of what I thought I already knew. This
conception is the frame within which I interpret any question
concerning the truth or falsity of memories or the authenticity of
the self which acts the remembrance of things past.
Henri
Laborit was a behaviorist with a difference. He felt that what we
each carry into the next present moment from the past was a trace
left by the schedules of reinforcement that we had experienced in the
past. This trace was memory
and a memory is true if it is part of what is being performed as self
in the present. Laborit is claiming that what is remembered is true
whether the memory is factual or not; a memory contrary to fact will
still be the past that is carried forward into the present by that
memory when it acts (Laborit, 1977). The level of neurosis suffered
by any given performative self can, however, be measured as the
distance between what is factual and what is remembered. When that
gap becomes so wide that memory performed in the present is not
coupled to the present facts at all, the result is a full psychotic
break. However, Laborit always emphasized that what is factual and
what is true does not agree perfectly for any of us. The past that is
remembered and performed in the present is always a revisionist
history that leaves
out the facts that will not fit into the story of how the memory-self
performing in the present came to be.
Michael
White’s approach to therapy was based on editing and re-visioning
(seeing again) the revisionist past that created a performative self
which was problematic or painful to live out in the present (White,
1990). This was done by searching for episodes from the past that had
been edited out of the revisionist history of this problematic self
to re-vision back in as a way to undermine the problematic aspects of
that memory which acts in the present. To the extent that this
re-visioning is both possible and therapeutically useful, the past
can be changed to make the memory that performs in the present less
dysfunctional.
I
was fascinated to discover that the current view of the molecular
mechanisms of memory acquisition, consolidation, and retrieval is
compatible with the vision of how memory works that I had formed,
taking ideas mostly from Laborit and White (Abel & Lattal, 2001).
My knowledge of neuroscience is sketchy and superficial, but to the
extent that I understand what is currently believed to be the case by
psychologists who specialize in this area, their micro-level
description of the processes of memory dovetails with the macro-level
account I offered above. At the most crudely simplistic level, what
is stored when an episode is stored in long-term memory is a protein.
When the episode is recalled, the protein is broken down by an
enzyme. The result of this is a firing of neurons in a pattern that
creates the conscious recall of the episode as a subjective
experience. My understanding is that the protein that stores the
memory is destroyed at each moment of recall and then re-synthesized
immediately after recall for storage in long-term memory. This would
make each instance of recall a re-visioning (seeing again) of the
episode different from the original subjective experience of the
episode in ways determined by changes in attitude since that time or
the acquisition of new information that might change the way the
episode was interpreted.
Each
re-synthesis of the protein stored for later recall would then also
be a re-vision that changed aspects of the original subjective
experience. The first time a wife meets her future husband will be
re-visioned differently one year later if the marriage is happy than
it was one day, one week or one month after that initial encounter
and will be re-visioned again five years later in the midst of an
ugly divorce. All of these variations are visions of the past that
were true memories of that initial encounter at one moment of recall.
The past changes each time our revisionist history of who we are and
how we got that way is re-visioned yet again.
The
McNally article took an approach to looking at a controversial topic,
recovered memories of childhood sexual abuse, which appealed to me.
If P then Q,: ~Q then ~P has been the standard logic of scientific
discovery since Popper (2002). In this case, if a sample of people
are repressing memories of childhood sexual abuse (P) then this
repression should make them take longer to notice the color of ink a
word such as incest
or abuse
is printed in than it normally would to perform this cognitive task
if the word involved were emotionally neutral (Q). Trying to
falsify/fail to falsify a controversial P by testing to see if a
trivial Q that would follow if P were true is a good way to examine
that controversial P without entering into the main controversy over
P in any direct way.
As
Richard McNally states, “Although cognitive psychology methods
cannot distinguish true memories from false ones, these methods can
illuminate mechanisms for remembering and forgetting among people
reporting histories of trauma” (McNally, 2003, p. 32). It can then
be asked if the pattern found in the mechanism for remembering and
forgetting observed in this sample matches what one would expect if
the memories were true or more the pattern one would expect if the
memories where false and perhaps constructed with the inadvertent
assistance of a well-meaning mental health professional.
McNally
looked at the differences among a control sample who reported no
childhood sexual abuse (CSA), a sample who reported continuous
memories of CSA, a sample who reported recovered memories of CSA, and
a sample who believed on the basis of various forms of current
psychological distress that they had repressed memories of CSA. The
control groups and the continuous memory sample did not differ on
measures of negative affect. The repressed memory sample scored
highest on negative affect with the recovered memory sample scoring
between the repressed memory sample and the control and continuous
memory groups.
McNally
also looked at the tendency to forget trauma-related material using a
directed forgetting methodology to test the hypothesis that CSA
survivors who are most severely distressed are much better able to
disengage attention from trauma-related material. McNally used three
samples: CSA survivors with PTSD, psychiatrically healthy CSA
survivors, and non-abused control subjects to test this hypothesis.
The results showed the exact opposite pattern from what one would
expect if the hypothesis were true; the most distressed CSA survivors
had much greater trouble forgetting trauma-related material even when
instructed to do so than either of the other two groups. Taken at
face value, these results would seem to indicate that the more
traumatic a memory, the less likely that memory is to be repressed.
This makes a great deal of sense If PTSD is defined as the emotional
state of being highly prone to slip back into the state of mind
experienced in response to an overwhelming trauma. PTSD is normally
described in this way, not as a forgetting of traumatic memories but
as an inability to forget so profound that it amounts to an endless
cycle of iterations of the original trauma in flashbacks which carry
the full negative affect of the original trauma.
If,
as I argued above, false memories are a common and routine part of
just about everyone’s subjective experience, then there is no
reason to believe that all memories of abuse, even those that carry a
charge of negative affect powerful enough to generate symptoms
sufficient to satisfy all four DSM criteria for mental illness, are
factual. Taking seriously Laborit’s insistence that memories can be
true
which are not factual is necessary to making sense of this situation.
The memory which performs the self in the present moment is acting
out of childhood sexual abuse all the same whether this abuse was
factual or not. The question of whether recovered memories of
childhood sexual abuse which are true
therapeutically
were factual was present at the creation of the talking cure as a
major problem not just theoretical but political faced by Freud; the
problem was political because Freud was intensely aware that coming
forward with the claim that a clear majority of his patients, a group
made up mostly of women drawn from the upper crust of Viennese
society, factually had been incested before puberty, mostly by their
fathers, would cause a backlash of scandal that would kill
psychoanalysis in its cradle. Freud was pragmatic enough to know
that, even if this were true, the result of saying so would bring
shame and disrepute upon the outsider, the Jewish doctor, who dared
to make the accusation and not upon the pillars of society being
accused.
Freud
also knew that his patients made their best progress if he conducted
therapy as if it were true
that they had been incested by their fathers. Freud’s solution was
the creation of the Electra complex, a way of defining memories of
CSA as true
for proposes of therapy but not factual. The debate has gone on ever
since and still continues today about whether Freud really believed
in his own theory of the Electra complex or merely used it as a way
to continue doing the most successful kind of therapy he knew how to
do with women who had suffered CSA without being obliged to destroy
himself and his new science in a head-on confrontation with the
ruling patriarchs of Viennese society in the Victoria Era.
Some
critics think Freud actually believed in the Electra complex but was
wrong to do so and right before, at first when he believed the
stories of CSA he was hearing so often and thought of them as being
simply factual. Others accuse Freud of outright complicity after the
fact with the abusers, seeing the Electra complex as a cover-up that
Freud consciously fabricated to be just that and nothing more
(Masson, 1984; Masson, 2003). If Judith Herman’s (2000) rough
estimate that one in three women in the general population is a
victim of CSA is accurate, CSA is not the rare grizzly
horror we have
conspired since at least the time of Freud to pretend it to be but a
common event in the life of many young girls. This debate is
intensely political on both sides and is being carried out between
one side that sees a centuries-long conspiracy to deny what so often
happens to young girls and another side that refuses to believe that
the grizzly horror
is so terribly common-place.
My
habitual way of looking at the self which performs in each
consecutive present moment as a memory which acts also informs my
response to the issues raised in the Bonanno article on resiliency.
At each such moment, we respond not out of what factually happened
but out of what is true
for the acting
memory in that present moment. Resiliency in face of a truly awful
loss has a very obvious explanation when considered in light of this
point of view. Resiliency will prove possible if the factual loss is
being performed as a true
memory that is
close enough to the factual to maintain the structural coupling of
the memory which acts to the actual
while, at the same
time, being a true
memory which can
perform as a going
on into each
consecutive present moment as a continuation of what one has been and
done before continued in light of and in spite of the loss as
remembered and acted out as a going
on from that
continues performing the same self and living the same life as
before.
Resiliency
is not possible if the memory which acts feels stuck or cannot
perform the present moment as a going
on from the loss as
the same person living the same life as before. Resiliency acts the
memory of a loss as something that one goes on after. Lack of
resiliency acts the memory of loss as a break, a being stuck, a not
being able to go on as the same person living the same life as
before. Interventions with people who are going
on from the loss as
memories which act the loss but can still go on can only do more harm
than good. Such interventions are worse than examples of intervening
to fix something that is not broken. They are examples of
interventions which can only serve to undermine and bring into
question the coping strategies whereby the brokenness of a major loss
has been fixed so that going on in light of and in spite of is
possible. Intervention is needed when the memory of loss which is
acting in the present moment is stuck and cannot perform as a going
on from as the same
person living the same life. This break in the continuity of the self
one has been and the life one has lived is the thing broken that
needs fixing. The brokenness of this self and the stuckness of this
life will be fixed when a way is found to remember the loss in a way
that can be performed as a going on in light of and in spite of.
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Abel, T., & Lattal, M. (2001).
Molecular mechanisms of memory acquisition, consolidation and
retrieval. Current Opinion in Neurobiology, 11,180–187.
Bonanno, G. (2008). Resilience in the
face of potential trauma. Bonanno, George A. Lilienfeld, Scott O.
(Ed.); Ruscio, John (Ed.); Lynn, Steven Jay (Ed.); Amherst, NY, US:
Prometheus Books, 2008. pp. 239–248.
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Oct 10, 2014
Guns
I've become an insurrectionist on 2nd
amendment issues in just the past few months for a reason that will
probably surprise you. I spend a lot of time on Skype and Second Life
doing ESL – Conversational English with Russians. One of the great
things about conversational English is that someone else is providing
formal instruction in the language. All I have to do is provide
opportunities to practice and a kind of quality control.
The quality control comes in because I
work with Russians, some working adults and some still in school, who
have been failed horribly by the Russian educational system k-20; a
much lower percentage of Russians can converse in English well enough
to, say, feel comfortable and confident negotiating a contact, than
you would find in any EU country. This is a problem because English
has become the de facto second language of the world. One big reason
for this was the disappearance of a huge economic bloc, isolated from
the rest of the world, where ambitious people learned Russian whether
they were Russian or not because Russian was the de facto language of
power and prestige there. Very few people in the old Soviet Union
could speak English, though many more could read and translate.
Anyway”””. I provide practice and
an opportunity to prove to themselves that they really are learning
spoken English better and better as evidenced by the fact that they
are finding causal conversation with a native speaker easier and
easier as time goes on. We can talk about anything we want as long as
we keep the conversation at least a little above the level of: ”Is
there a book on the table. Is that John's book on the table”. My
students are most interested in questions about how exactly life in
America is different from life in Russia. The two things that most of
them know about America is that all Americans eat out constantly and
never cook at home and are armed to the teeth. It is definitely the
part about being armed to the teeth that they envy greatly.
I've been asked many times if I own a
gun and a few times how many guns I own. When I ask in response why
this is so important to them, the ones who bring up guns, which is
well more than half of them in the long run, immediately start giving
me the insurrectionist argument for making and keeping the right of
the people to bear arms absolute with genuine passion. If I keep
asking questions so that they will tell me rather than waiting for me
to tell them, this gets articulated into a very well worked-out and
quite consistent theory of general principle privileging the right to
own guns as one right that people must have in order to have any
rights at all,. I love having this conversation because it causes the
Russians involved to focus on stating clearly something they are
trying to persuade me to accept as an important truth rather than on
how they are saying things. This also helps me slide over into
American politics, which really helps keep the conversation going
given that I am a news junkie and they are fascinated by any
description of what really goes on in American and why. This is the
one hot-button issue in American politics where hearing what Russians
have to say has changed my own stance.
Oct 9, 2014
Samael
Many
people have wondered if they might be a character in a novel or if
every author creates a world. There is a wrinkle here that makes this
insight even more interesting. It involves embracing both actualities
at once to create an infinite regress. I am the author; I mean in
your particular case. This posting and the moment when you sit
reading this posting is detailed on page 37 of a meta-novel about
creative writing considered as a use of narrative means to achieve
therapeutic ends. I wrote this back in 1973, during my Barthelme
Period or, as some unkind critics have dubbed it, my “Soused
Period”. That's right friends and neighbors; I invented blogs even
before Al Gore invented the Internet. Being young and foolish at the
time, I did not realize that I also was a character in a novel
written by someone else, making you a dream within a dream and my
author a God in a higher heaven. The real secret about the one true
secret name of God is that no one knows it. If you think you do, you
are denying the unknown and unnamed God in a higher heaven, which
makes you not God but Samael, the blind angel whose blindness is the
madness of thinking that “Samael” is the one true name of God and
that what he sees when he looks in the mirror is just divine, the
whole truth and nothing but the truth so help him God.
The
argument being made here is that, being omniscient, Samael can be
neither mistaken, deluded or deceived. Imagine some lunatic who
thinks he is Napoleon pointing at his reflection in a mirror and
inviting you to accept the obvious and you've got the problem here.
What pisses Samael off more than anything is when someone starts
asking rude questions about the creation myth that proves that Samael
hung the moon, shit the stars and turned out all of our souls like
Aunt Julie baking Gingerbread Men. We have enjoyed the many benefits
of AIDS, Ebola and two terms worth of George W. Bush only because
some people arrogantly refused to take Samael's version of who we
are, how we got here and of why there is a “here” for us to be at
face-value. This is not the typical reaction, which is very important
to Samael's state of emotional well-being, precarious as that might
be. These cookie-monsters much more often sit up, look around, see
the world, see Samael standing there doing his trade-mark infinite
beard in a long white spirit shtick and spontaneous speak the first
prayer, which goes, “Damn Dude, you have one hell of a genius
imagination! What were you thinking when you came up with bobbies?”
When girls sit up and look around, they almost never ask about the
penis first thing. Some people just don't feel the magic of a true
miracle even when you put one right inside them.
Samael
is the most jealous of Gods by virtue of being the most insecure;
think of him as a high maintenance girl-friend who can cause plagues
and you are plenty close enough to predict the tortured past and
bleak future of any dumb-ass clueless enough to worship this turkey.
Those types typically call themselves Baptists but we all know who
they really worship and what they do to their kids to make sure they
grow up Baptist all the way down and not still half-human in a broken
sort of way, but ashamed enough of being even vaguely human or humane
to stay in the closet about it even with their kids, who typically
get the full treatment because their parents are afraid word will get
around if they do anything less. In a “culture” where sadistic
pedophile incest is a core aspect of persona and an essential part of
what being a respectable person who can be trusted to raise children
right means, the shadow contains the slightest twinge of guilt evoked
by the bloody underpants of one's spawn, each of them destined at
birth to be sacrificed to Samael in a secret ritual that dares not
speak its name or call on anything holy except by the name and in the
name of Samael. Issac grows up to be Abraham and the autocatalytic
cycle of shame and abuse continues like nothing new under the son.
Will the circle go unbroken? Well, it has up until now. See The
Mass Psychology of Fascism by Wilhelm Reich or a dinner table
anywhere down south on Thanksgiving Day for further details.
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